So Lost

I feel so lost and so broken. How did this all happen? Why did this all happen? I want to go far far away and never come back to this place. This is not who I am or where I am meant to be.

Worry

I know worrying doesn't help but it is so hard to just let everything be. What if this isn't what I am meant to do? What if I fail?

Give up this fight

Please don't give up on me either.

Love you

P.S. I Love You says it all

"I'm so angry I could kill somebody! I'm alone, and it doesn't matter what job I have or what I do or what I don't do or what friends I have, he's not here. I mean you're alone no matter what."

"I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah, I know that. I know what it is not to feel like you're in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his."

We were not ok for a long time

Does it still mean something
when we say "I love you"
just to fill the silence?

How did it get to be this way?
Seperated while in the same room,
touching to see if we are still real.

Everything we say and do
is meaningless and hollow.
Yet we go on pretending we are ok.

We are not ok. You and I.